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The long lost passion

Something my mum talk about last weekend made me realized something. My passion for cooking. Yes, I am a culinarian for years now, engage with cooking almost every single day, but the fire, my once fiery passion in cooking is not there. It's like, I'm just doing it for the sake of my job and for the benefits of my students. God, where is 'that love' that buried deep in myself since I was just a little girl? It almost made me cry when my mum said that she couldn't forget the deliciousness of 'kueh pau' that I made when I was just in primary school. Among so many things that I cooked for my family, that was one small insignificant things that she can't forget. I am so touched at heart. She said that what was so special about it is the filling. The filling that I accidentally invented out of boredom after coming back from school. I remember that my dad didn't believed I made it myself that he kept asking where I bought it from. Maybe becau

Life is NO Fairy Tale

 Cinderella, all-time fave fairy tale I used to believe in fairy tales and a happy ending. When I thought my life is nearly perfect at 24 (I got a better job, stayed with my BFF, had a great life plan, and got my first car), suddenly everything went sour. Yeah, life is not always beautiful... My parents separated (I refused to use the "D" word, coz it sounds too bad for me. Up until now only few closest friends know about it, and yes, I'm good at pretending like nothing happened). While my BFF who I adore so much had to leave for a position at polytechnic in our hometown. It was a terrible time for me and I cried most of the time when I'm alone. Though I was really sad for her that she had to give up her life here, I understand that we will not achieve real happiness without our parents' blessings. And that's what she did, putting the happiness of her parents first than her own. Deep inside I am so proud with her and I know, one